Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Ice Skating and Chick-Fil-A

Ella loves to go to her ice skating lessons! Her teacher Miss Jennifer, who happens to be a local news reporter for this station, is awesome. Ella has made some great friendships in this class, one of which is a girl adopted from China, named Delany. What are the chances that I sign Ella up for an ice skating class and she meets a girl adopted from China, her age and lives only a few miles away. I couldn't believe it! I love that Ella has a new buddy that she can identify with. After lessons, we all went to Chick-Fil-A for lunch. Of course, Ella's favorite part was the ice cream!

Tuesday, January 27, 2009


Yes! I know that I haven't posted in a while-I been told by many. Some have called my blog "lame and pathetic; in need of resuscitation." I needed a break-so much was going on in my life-some being caused by these cute little faces.

Adopting an older child comes with so many benefits, but it also comes with past memories-memories of a life you took away. A five year old does not have a real clear understanding of the big picture of life. I have had more conversations with Ella about "forever families" than I have had reading her books. Some days, I spend the whole day telling Ella that we are not taking her back to China or to live with a new mommy or daddy. Some nights, she still wakes up screaming. How I want her to understand she is home. I know this will come with time, but it breaks my heart and exhausts me emotionally.

All the while, I have been trying to finish up a few college classes. I went to college for three years before I got married so I have been on a quest to finish. Some months, it is not a quest, but an obsession...I get so wrapped up in just finishing that I loose site of other things going on around me. I have decided that going to college as a mom is like trying to win the lottery-nearly impossible. It takes me one year to finish two classes online. I finally decided that I would go back into the classroom this fall and finish up with an education degree. But, I think all day kindergarten is probably on the chopping block due to state budget cuts, so Ella will be home at half day. No way I can go full time to school. I have to remind myself that it is not my time to finish this goal-being a mom is my number one priority. So, here's to starting back to school full time in the fall of 2010...or 2011...2012.

Life is rather cluttered-you just muddle through and try to put a smile on your face, be positive and find joy around you. I have so many blessings-Life is Good!